Pastors Unfiltered #103: Am I Willing?

May 16, 2025

This week on Pastors Unfiltered, Pastor Tony is joined by Pastor Christian Lindbeck in a raw, deep-dive conversation about healing from shame, confronting past wounds, and finding true peace through Jesus. From cinematic commentary on Thunderbolts and Severance to vulnerable personal stories of spiritual warfare, confession, and restoration, this episode is one of the most powerful yet. Plus, the Coeur d’Alene bug invasion returns for another round of bug-stravaganza laughs.


00:00 – Opening banter: First cars and pastor intros

00:28 – Let it all hang out: Pastors Unfiltered opens 

00:50 – Christian joins the show

01:36 – Sponsor shoutout: Anderson Lawn Care

02:13 – Kindergarten recess drama & mafia jokes

03:12 – Social media & disassociation

04:00 – Thunderbolts movie discussion

05:05 – The cultural moment: Unhealed shame and pain

06:13 – Severance, escapism, and pain denial

07:12 – The real need for Jesus in healing

08:10 – Spiritual warfare and footholds

09:03 – What true forgiveness looks like

10:05 – Addictions as symptoms of pain

12:12 – Disassociation and social media

13:35 – Vulnerable confessions & confronting guilt

14:55 – Christian’s full life confession story

19:05 – Monastery, nightmares & spiritual breakthroughs

21:02 – Agreements with evil and breaking them

25:00 – What is an agreement? Spiritual covenants unpacked

29:25 – The danger of minimizing spiritual warfare

31:01 – What salvation starts and sanctification continues

33:13 – Tone metaphor: Harmony with God

34:56 – How healing changed Christian’s marriage

36:24 – Takeaway: Forgiveness, shame, and purpose

39:52 – Starting the journey: Prayer and action steps

41:40 – Fruits of the Spirit as alignment

42:30 – Living in contrast: preaching while broken

43:37 – Deep trauma and the journey of healing

45:00 – Suicide ideation and the enemy’s lies

46:07 – Worshiping creation over Creator

48:20 – Shalom: Peace with God, self, others, creation

50:13 – Quasi-transcendence and the illusion of peace

52:08 – Haunted by the transcendent: Green Lake jokes

54:03 – The invaluable classroom of life

55:11 – Redemption, healing, and encouragement

55:49 – BONUS: Bug extravaganza at Coeur d'Alene Resort

01:00:10 – The pamphlet of doom

01:01:15 – Final reflections, open DMs, and thank you